"It's hard to be the one that stays"

"It's only 3 weeks. Its only 3 weeks. Its only 3 weeks" That may sound good in theory but in reality, 3 weeks is a life time to not be held, not be kissed, not be loved. Especially when that's the longest its been in a long time. Its hard to be lonely all the time. Its hard to live alone, especially for me. I'm afraid. Very afraid. What if I get attacked? What if I die and nobody notices for weeks? 3 weeks is an eternity. I miss you with my entire being, every second of every day. and it hurts. Its hard to be the one that is away from home with no one to fall back on. Its hard to be the one that moves away. and I know its hard to be the one that stays baby. I know its hard for you too. and I know you are lonely. But only 9 more days. I wish I was rich. I wish I could come running back to you every weekend. I wish we were together every day. I wish loving you was easier. <3