Even the best fall down sometimes.

Sometimes life comes to a point where nothing makes sense. Nothing is like it used to be, and you don't know when it all changed. And you find yourself wondering, is this where I am supposed to be? Life is confusing, the world keeps spinning no matter if you're ready to move on or not. The world doesn't stop so you can catch up, sometimes you just have to hold your head up and work a little harder. Relationships are the same way. One person makes a mistake, and there is no reverse or undo button to fix it. You just have to suck it up, and work at it. And sometimes, there is no forgiveness. Sometimes one of you, or both of you, are just to bitter and stubborn to fix anything. "We're like fire and gasoline, I'm no good for you, you're no good for me". But there is that magnetic pull, that one thing that keeps you running back, no matter how many mean names were exchanged or what hurtful things were done. But as much as you want to be right there with them, there is a part of you that is screaming "they deserve better than you, you are an awful person, you don't treat them as good as you used to...as good as someone else might treat them." Yet, you're stuck. Its too hard to leave, but it's not like it was a year or two ago. It's so mch different. Especially at this age, we are ever changing. We mature, we learn who we are, we try and figure out where we belong in this world. And we realize what we are meant to do in life. We realize how much work its going to be to get where we want to be in five years. And there is only one person we want right there with us. But they are doing something with their life too. They aren't opening a bakery, they are on a completely different path, with much different options. And it hurts. It freaking sucks. And its all you can think about, because being without them is like losing a part of you. Because for the last year, or more, they have been there for you. they have been with you every step of the way. Cheering you on and catching you when you fall. Good days and Bad. Through the smiles, fights, tears, and laughter, its been the both of you... Is it so wrong to want to hold on to that? Is it bad to keep familiarity and love around even when you know it may hold one of you down? Is it so awful to want to be together, no matter how unhealthy? please, I just need a sign....