Jack Daniels.

Far away in dreamland, something in me changes. My heart beats to a different drum. One I have never heard before, one you bring out in me. You've changed things. My set ways, gone. My strong composure and strong will to survive alone, out the window. I don't know how this happened. I am completely vulnerable to you, and I can't handle that. I don't know how to handle that. This is new to me. The new me that is. Moving fast and falling hard, two of the things I used to do best. That part of me is dead, and you resurrected it. I want to hold your hand, touch your face, feel your warmth. But this is short lived. I don't know how to deal with the fact that you're leaving. 3 more weeks isn't enough time for me. I wish you could stay. I wish I could run away. I can already feel the tears running down my cheeks the day you leave. I don't feel like this. I don't know why I feel like this. I don't know how to feel like this. I miss my heart. You stole it. You have my heart in the palm of your hand, and I don't think you even realize it. You are getting on that plane and flying away with it. How am I supposed to feel? Am I supposed to be okay with that? It hurts to know this may never work out how it should. We work. We are good. Me and you. You and me. What else do we need? I'm drunk on you. You give me scary feelings that I've never experienced. But sometimes, you pick me up as high as the sky, and then have to watch me jump. I don't know how to do this. I don't know how to fall for you and be okay about it. I want to. I want to fall for you, I want to know what it's like with you. But I don't want to get hurt. I'm scared, so just hold me tight tonight, and let me be alone.